This is mainly a vent blog.
Who is it that defines what is perfection in a human. I firmly dont believe that there is a perfect human on this earth.
I hate these people that DECIDE that a person is perfect because they are beautiful or good looking. But what is defined as good looking? I dont believe there is a defination of good looking. My original thought was that this is all the fault of the male. Males consistently go after beautiful women who have the perfect hair and figure etc.
But females do it to. They define perfect as buff, with muscles, perfect hair and facial features etc.
In the end its a load of rubbish. I dont believe in any of it.
I am still waiting for this stupid scan to happen. I cant wait until next saturday.
Friday, January 30, 2009
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
the doctors this morning
This morning i went to the doctors and had a blood test result. It turns out that my liver counts are up which i knew already. Anyway my new doctor wants me to have a liver scan because he thinks he could be gall stones. :-( I will die if its gall stones. Anyway i was thinking about looking into a shake diet. (wrong i know, but i need something i need some kind of weightloss i need to see some results) Well i am not starting anything until i get the results of the liver scan. :-(
Monday, January 19, 2009
A new approach
I have ditiched the dieition and i am going with another program. I dont really think that person was really working for me. I am sure she is a person with lots of knowledge and know how but her personality was totally different to mine.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
300grams is that all??????
Today i arrived at my dietitians office ready to show off a good weight loss result. Anyway got on the scales and she did her fiddle thing (she has manual scales) anyway...... 300grams. My last consultation was 3 weeks before that. Surely i should be able to loose more than that? Now, i know that i have A LOT going against me medically but Please.... send me some decent results.
Now the positive side of me says 300 grams is better than nothing, and yes i realise that. But sometimes it gets so frustrating when you stay stagnant for such a long time and put in so much effort. All i want is a decent weight loss result, i am sick of this, i am sick of trying and getting no where.
My dietitian is frankly driving me nuts. She made the comment yesterday that it might take years for me to "feel" hungry. Does this mean that its going to take me years to loose the weight. I hope not because i am hanging by a thread here. If it takes me years i am very likely to give up.
Today i tried a different training technique which i think is like interval training. I have several hills around my area. I run or power walk up the hill then i walk very slowly down it so i have time to catch my breath back (which is great for me because i am asthmatic and i find if i keep going to hard then i trigger and attack) . I tried this once and i lasted for about 20 minutes but it was about 2:30 in the afternoon and stinking hot. Then i went home got a water bottle and went back for another 20 minutes. Anyway it was hot then too but the difference is this time every few laps i got to wet my throat which definitely made it easier. I would have kept going but it was really hot and i didn't want to push it any further than i already had. Especially seeing as my problems with fluid and mucus are still present. But i have boot camp tonight so its probably a good idea that i don't push it any further.
After spending Saturday night with a great group of friends, i wake with what feels like a bit of food stuck in my chest. I decided not to waste any time and went straight to the doctors. The doctor checks my throat and then informs me that its not food but my good friend mucus. (yuck)I have had this problem since late last year when i got a chest infection. Since then i have been getting either a cold, sinus or just continuous mucus) So the question is again, what is it that is making me sick? So far i have narrowed it down to my air conditioner, however i think its because i might actually be dehydrated because when i begain increasing my exercise i did not increased my water intake. I asked the doctor for a blood test to see if i am allergic to anything and i go back for the results on Wednesday. In the mean time he has given me another reliever which is supposed to help with mucus. I just hope that it doesn't come back environmental because then i am going to be stuck.
I cant give up, although i want to try something else. What this dietition is doing is unrealistic for me. What i should have done is lost the weight first then go and see her.
Now the positive side of me says 300 grams is better than nothing, and yes i realise that. But sometimes it gets so frustrating when you stay stagnant for such a long time and put in so much effort. All i want is a decent weight loss result, i am sick of this, i am sick of trying and getting no where.
My dietitian is frankly driving me nuts. She made the comment yesterday that it might take years for me to "feel" hungry. Does this mean that its going to take me years to loose the weight. I hope not because i am hanging by a thread here. If it takes me years i am very likely to give up.
Today i tried a different training technique which i think is like interval training. I have several hills around my area. I run or power walk up the hill then i walk very slowly down it so i have time to catch my breath back (which is great for me because i am asthmatic and i find if i keep going to hard then i trigger and attack) . I tried this once and i lasted for about 20 minutes but it was about 2:30 in the afternoon and stinking hot. Then i went home got a water bottle and went back for another 20 minutes. Anyway it was hot then too but the difference is this time every few laps i got to wet my throat which definitely made it easier. I would have kept going but it was really hot and i didn't want to push it any further than i already had. Especially seeing as my problems with fluid and mucus are still present. But i have boot camp tonight so its probably a good idea that i don't push it any further.
After spending Saturday night with a great group of friends, i wake with what feels like a bit of food stuck in my chest. I decided not to waste any time and went straight to the doctors. The doctor checks my throat and then informs me that its not food but my good friend mucus. (yuck)I have had this problem since late last year when i got a chest infection. Since then i have been getting either a cold, sinus or just continuous mucus) So the question is again, what is it that is making me sick? So far i have narrowed it down to my air conditioner, however i think its because i might actually be dehydrated because when i begain increasing my exercise i did not increased my water intake. I asked the doctor for a blood test to see if i am allergic to anything and i go back for the results on Wednesday. In the mean time he has given me another reliever which is supposed to help with mucus. I just hope that it doesn't come back environmental because then i am going to be stuck.
I cant give up, although i want to try something else. What this dietition is doing is unrealistic for me. What i should have done is lost the weight first then go and see her.
Sunday, January 11, 2009
my letter to Silvestro
Dear Silvestro,
Hi, how are you? I am feeling a little down today. I think your the only person who can pick me up. I have been doing a 45 minute walk everyday but its getting me no where.
I know what the problem is. I am a glucose intolerant and the doctors seem to think i might have PCOS. At the moment i just feel like i am going around and around in circles.I never feel hungry, sometimes i have to make myself eat something. Then i when i do feel like something its not real hunger. It usually stress or tiredness. My dietitian thinks that i have to do at least one hour and half to begin with. Which i don't mind doing, however what else can i do? Do those strength exercises count? such as weights, ab exercises etc. Do you have any other ideas that i can use to lengthen my exercise time.I am just really lost here Silvestro but i am scared because i am literally one step away from developing full blown diabetes. At the moment i am just trying to be as positive as i can but its really hard. These are the cards that i have been dealt and i just have to accept that this is what i must do.I am sorry to keep going on, i realise that you are probably very busy but any feed back you have would be greatly appreciated.
Katrina xxoo
Hi, how are you? I am feeling a little down today. I think your the only person who can pick me up. I have been doing a 45 minute walk everyday but its getting me no where.
I know what the problem is. I am a glucose intolerant and the doctors seem to think i might have PCOS. At the moment i just feel like i am going around and around in circles.I never feel hungry, sometimes i have to make myself eat something. Then i when i do feel like something its not real hunger. It usually stress or tiredness. My dietitian thinks that i have to do at least one hour and half to begin with. Which i don't mind doing, however what else can i do? Do those strength exercises count? such as weights, ab exercises etc. Do you have any other ideas that i can use to lengthen my exercise time.I am just really lost here Silvestro but i am scared because i am literally one step away from developing full blown diabetes. At the moment i am just trying to be as positive as i can but its really hard. These are the cards that i have been dealt and i just have to accept that this is what i must do.I am sorry to keep going on, i realise that you are probably very busy but any feed back you have would be greatly appreciated.
Katrina xxoo
Thursday, January 8, 2009
45 minutes
Recently i have been walking around the block at 48 minutes. Today i have narrowed it down to 45 minutes.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
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